This is strange to explain. I think I love Carol more than I have loved those girls, but in a different way. I felt very bad for the loves that didn't work at that time and I though life sucked withouth them. Now I love her very much, but I dont think like I can't live without her. That "unbearable passion" thing is past story and I don't miss it in any way...I have loved a woman once. It was a loooong time ago. I don't have anyone at this time but I think I will never feel the same 'bout any other woman.It sucks 'cos I always thought the person you spend all your life togheter has to be the one you have loved most. And I think I deserve this
<sigh> but now I'm almost sure if I'm going to be with someone forever, it will not be "the most loved"